Another brilliant piece from a GUNNAS WRITING MASTERCLASS writer.
If I wrote Haiku
in Gunnas today then
it would be concise
or many concise
points from my perspective on
my experience
I have yet to say
anything about my feelings
they are avoided
so, I feel into
my body and I feel tense fear
constricting my whole being
I keep writing and
throat clenched against rising vomit
my shoulders are tense
my stomach feels like
a concrete slab, reinforced
and I continue
I am a survivor
of self inflicted murder
obviously failed
not witty, not fun
just lost and hurt and broken
If I didn’t die
Then I was meant to
live, so I better
start living and that means
integrating me
All of me into
me, all feelings and thoughts
merging into me
and now I gestate
this unborn me and I love
I love and nurture
nourish, protect, serve
myself because with help I
realise that I am
I am here, I am
I am here and I matter
I matter to me
owari