DESPINA – Anastasia Panayiotidis

Another brilliant piece from a GUNNAS WRITING MASTERCLASS WRITER. 

Twenty five years,

That’s what you were given

For your life.

Two dozen years in health,

From diagnosis to death,

Just over a year,

Twenty five years.

“Fuck Cancer!” you wrote

On your Face Book.

You embraced your suffering

With grace

Without complaint

Your smile ever shining,

Big bright eyes

and courage in both hands.

A cancer journey it’s called!

A journey no one chooses to embark on.

But it’s random fate for so many

Genetics?

Environment?

Unanswered questions.

Too many lives

So much pain

Too much suffering.

“Fuck cancer!”

It was cancer

That took your sweet Mother

Less than a year before.

Mother of six

Aged 47

Hope placed in a stem cell transplant

“Remission”

A green light to travel

Hallelujah!

The thrill and joy lasted only

A matter of weeks.

Your dream was to fly to Greece

With your best friend Ilyanka,

Gorgeous girls with sparkling smiles.

That’s the trip you dreamt of taking.

The Parthenon you saw from afar

Not enough energy to climb to the

Top of the Acropolis.

Goddess Athena

Could not equip you

To survive

To live

Fate took over.

“Fuck cancer!”

Taken ill after five days.

Your beloved brother by your side,

Within a week of arrival

You took your last breath.

Hippocrates Hospital

Thessaloniki was to be the sacred place

Of your reposed soul,

And still body.

Where a cousin Constantine

Who had taken the same journey

Passed away

Ten years before.

Twenty five years

That’s what you were given

Beautiful Despina

Aged twenty five.

Red tape.

Bureaucratic obstacles.

Your body flown back.

Like Snow White

In a white coffin

Wearing your black beanie

And a white shroud

Covering the wounds

Of autopsy.

A funeral and a white coffin

That was your destiny

Not a white wedding dress

Nor a wedding dance with your beau

A choir sings the Requiem

Angelic voices reaching the heavens

Songs and prayers

Your soul rose

Transcendence

To the Infinite

Twenty five years,

Just blossomed into

Womanhood,

Beaming in your beauty.

You Took it all with grace

Without complaint

Not a fuss.

You did it your way.

Only twenty five.

Theia Soula

Anastasia

Panayiotidis

A white coffin

Not a white wedding dress

A funeral

Not a wedding dance

With the love of your life

Lying in it like Snow White

With your beanie covering your head

Covering the wounds of an autopsy

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