If I was a writer – Courtney Louise

Another brilliant piece from a GUNNAS WRITING MASTERCLASS WRITER. 

If I was a writer I would write my first book about my journey of the last decade of my life. I would write to anyone or no one. I would write because the crazy world makes a little more sense when it gets out of my head.

If I was a writer I would tell the world how I suffered a chronic eating disorder but in the years of confusion and mental illness I somehow still managed to finish a degree with honours, live and travel in a number of different countries, have beautiful intermittent relationships and still manage to function as a working professional. That’s my first book. Probably for anyone who can relate to living with chronic illness. Learning through identification. Having a book written that I wish was there available for me when I suffered through pain, heartache and felt close to death. Writing the book that I need to get out in order to find true health, true life and true creativity.
If I was a writer- I would then write a book on an expierence. About ‘FUCK OFF EXPECTATION’. About the stigma that age determines where we should all be in life. By 28 I am apparently meant to be engaged, putting a deposit down on my first house with a partner, thinking about having my first baby, accepting that work means Monday to Friday and that we only live for the weekends. I would include topics about the trust we put in others including health professionals and those with a title. How we constantly compare our already beautiful lives to those who have something different- the classic; ‘The grass is greener on the other side’. I would write again to relate to someone who may be burning inside (just like me) about the confusion of how to be happy with life just as it is right now and with ourselves just as we are right now. Gay, straight, exploring, feminist, creator, simple, traveler whatever. Topics that touch on movement through life- growth through experience- understanding through existence.
If I was a writer I would love to write a book on travelling Australia. I would go on the journey myself- possibly picking up work as a nurse in different states just so I could listen to what my head spits out next.
 The life of a girl who just brought a mini campervan and went around AUS. What happened? Who did she meet? Did she fall in love? Was she struck with danger? Was it just one big huge disaster? Was it uncomfortable? Would it have been better to do the normal thing and save for a house and do what society approves of? A journey she didn’t want to experience when she retired- a journey she didn’t want to wait for. A focus on self belief, courage and pure passion.
If I was a writer I would probably have to write a book of inspirational quotes. Inspirational quotes that lead to others being filled with inspiration to discover their passion. When we are children we get to try all these awesome things, we get the opportunities and allocated time to be creative and explore our own imaginations and then through adolescents-early 20’s and then by our late 20’s – bang- it’s just gone- See you later creativity- YOU ARE A GROWN UP NOW!! Welcome to your boring bullshit life of work, gym and dinners. Welcome to the life in which you constantly hear yourself saying ‘One day I will do that’ or ‘Oh I use to love doing that’ or ‘Oh I wish I had time to still do that’. A book in which opens up the opportunity for a creative space and time in adult life- A book that recognises creative minds as part of a healthy mind, body but most importantly a healthy spirit.
If I was a writer I think I would then write a book based on something another gunna mentioned today; ‘A life that needs no vacation’. A life based on ‘the dream’. I would write a book about the dream that feels out of reach-why it feels out of reach and if there is any possible way to actually reach it! Is it possible to put my 4 qualifications together (Nursing, personal training life coaching and massage)? What would be the dream? Imagine a business in which those recovering from any illness or trauma had a place they could go. A workshop maybe or retreat in which they can tap into imagination, creative mind and issues of identity. Using communication, education, light exercise, reflection, massage techniques and of course amazing nutrition in order to show others a brand new window that they haven’t tapped into before. Self belief, self motivation, empowering others by just explaining the tools of trust- that there’s no great wrong- there’s just wrong in not doing.
‘CRANK IT UP’ – This is awesome- I love it- Crank it up would be a ripper book based on taking chances, saying yes and turning up the volume. Taking it to the next level. Knowing that whatever you want in life is damn right achievable. Exploring what is right now!! How to get something done!! Before we wake up one day and something gets in the way- before we are diagnosed with a chronic illness, before we fall pregnant, before we forget, before years pass us by- Crank up your life and say yes- do what it is that is yelling inside because CLICK- There goes 5 more years and then CLICK there goes the next 10! That job will still be there Monday morning, those bills will still roll into the letter box- Crank it up before it’s gone!!
If I was a writer…
Now that would be awesome!
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