Another brilliant piece from a GUNNAS WRITING MASTERCLASS WRITER
Who are we when we drop the identity we have built around us?
We become self-conscious as we grow more and more attached to our identity. What if we could drop all that and see past to the raw materials as such?
What are our core emotions, where do these emotions come from?
Why do we project so much of who we are onto others and the world around us?
If I didn’t put first that I am a woman, a single mum, a teacher well who am I?
I am an individual who is compassionate and empathetic. I care when people hurt, not because of who they are or what they are but because they hurt and I don’t want that. I want everyone to have as much happiness as a human possibly can.
And I understand that we can’t be happy all of the time and I understand that is not even preferable. I find myself now in a very good place. I now know it is possible to feel happy a lot of the time, some of the time. So what might it be that is making me happy a lot of the time right now?
1. I know that it’s okay not to be happy all the time. I don’t kick myself when I’m down.
2. I honour my feelings. If I ignore them they fester and get septic and come out all ugly at the wrong people.
3. Some stress is good for me but I have to manage it. Exercise can help a lot as it gets the endorphins flowing.
4. Care. I’m not afraid to care and show that I care. I get misty eyed a lot and I get embarrassed by that but is it really something to be embarrassed of?
5. I am unique. I am special and I bring to the world something no-one else has got and that is my ticket to a deserving place on this planet. It doesn’t matter what I’ve got. I’ve got it and no one else has.
6. I express myself. I just do it whenever I can. Throw some paint. Cook a meal with a weird combination of spices. Yodel. Model. Snorkel. I do what makes me happy in the moment to find my flow state.
7. I trust myself. I don’t always need to ask others opinions sometimes I just know what is right for me.
8. Set some boundaries. I might not be so good at this. I might feel mean sometimes for shutting people out but I try to remember this is really important for my sanity.
9. I get angry sometimes. And that’s ok too.