Another brilliant piece from a GUNNAS WRITING MASTERCLASS WRITER`
What helped me nearly 3 years ago when I had a brain bleed stroke in October 2015, doesn’t help me now.
Why? Because I’m not the same person I was back then.
Then I was in “Survival Euphoria” and thought it would take me about a year to recover from full right-sided paralysis and literally get back on my feet.
I was recovering pretty well by October 2017, and as a celebration of my 2-year survival I had booked into Clip and Climb with my family in Melbourne.
The night before, though, I had an accident. I broke my foot by just walking across the street. Not even a fall, and ended up in a cam boot for 8 weeks. There’s got to be a stronger word than “disappointed” but I can’t think of one right now.
The resilience that had carried me through had now completely evaporated – all gone. It was all used up in the 2 years of struggling to recover from the stroke.
Sounds ridiculous but I think I dealt with the stroke much better than this very common condition.
Now depression and helplessness kicked in big time.
Where was my courage? Where was my Scottish fiesty character?
All my Coaching training and techniques now felt useless.
I was done.
I became so bored with myself in this negative mindset I just had to Get Out:
Get out of bed
Get out of my own head
Get out of the house
Get out of my pyjamas
( Yes, in that order!)
I almost convinced myself that I had the perfect excuse to Give Up and Give In.
But my nagging self-talk said I knew I’d regret it.
I didn’t want to leave a legacy of ” Clare nearly made it ” Not good enough girl!
What a waste of this precious gift of a second chance at life.
So coming to this Gunnas Writing Masterclass today is a major part of me getting a grip on my life and finishing my book “The (very) Rocky Road To Recovery”