Another brilliant piece from a GUNNAS WRITING MASTERCLASS WRITER`
In the beginning…… Well, I don’t know where to start, but that’s kinda like how everything starts, with the first step. With uncertainty, and when you start, instead of planning what you will do, thinking about what you will do, talking about what you will do and feeling good about what it is that you will do, actually do something. Anything is better than nothing. At most and at least – you will learn. And then, you can say, I’ve done it. 🙂
I still don’t know where this thing called life is going, but hey, I am on my way. I’m writing this, because it matters. It matters cause I changed my life and people come up to me now and say. “Hey, how can I be more like you?” And then I tell them a bunch of things about what I believe and the models I use and one of two things happen. Either peoples eyes glaze over, because they realise that being like me, requires for them to change and actually be and do something different. That’s effort and involves pain. I might also totally freak them out with what I am telling them, so that’s something to consider.
Or the second thing that happens, that they get really emotional, excited and a lot of the time, also sad. It’s not always outwardly visible, but I can feel it. They realise how far away they are from living their best life, from being connected to themselves, from knowing who they really are.
Cause when I speak, I lift the veil, I give the red pill, reveal the matrix of life. And just like Neo, who, when he woke up realised that his life had been a lie. He had never ever ever used his body, never ever been in a real life situation, the reality he discovered wasn’t that glorious, the food was terrible and there was a war going on. But for the first time, he could experience himself, and that’s worth something, isnt’t it?
But once you have seen behind the matrix, you cannot unsee it. Cypher – the one that betrayed Neo, wanted to go back into the Matrix, wanted to forget.
We don’t have that luxury and if we don’t move forward with the knowledge we now have, the pain that is created through non action, knowing there is a better way, and not using it, gets bigger and bigger.
Cognitive Dissonance is what creates the pain. The difference between where we think we are and where we actually here – which is usually worse and hurts.
The awareness that we are not who we think we are, that we tell ourselves a lie that we defended as true, hold onto, the thing that is part of our identity, starts to crumble. It’s then that we tell ourselves stories to placate our lack of action, our feelings of inadequacy, or justification why we cant to the thing we’ve always dreamed of, and then we sit back and feel good about ourselves for giving up our dream. But deep down we know, we always know, that we have just acquiesced ourselves to numb the pain. The emptyness of not living our best life is still there, and so we try to fill it with “things out there” . Addictions, shopping, working, drama in relationships. Don’t be a Drama Lama. Have that image in your mind next time you throw your hands up in the air like a contestant on Married at First sight.
Yet, is there a way out of this, yes, there is always a way! Its action, learning to trust yourself to do the thing you cannot do, you are afraid of doing, you don’t know how to do, the thing that scares you little and is outside your comfort zone. The thing when you think of it, a whole other story of why you cannot do it comes up. Yep, that thing? The one you’ve procrastinated on? Do it! What will others think, what if I am not good enough, what if I will be judged? I don’t think I can handle that? I don’t think I can defend that? Being me is not enough? Do it!
Let me give you some wise sage advice. The one thing that will solve all your 3 P’s. Procastination, perfectionism and processing. Do it! That’s it. Do the thing that scares you, cause that’s where you biggest growth is. You know you are hungry to know what you are made of, that song that is yet to be sung and is inside of you, what you want to shout from the rooftops, the thing that matters. Do it!
Take the red pill! Fuck it!